Wicked things

WHAT ARE YOU THANKFUL FOR?

2006-10-04T14:40:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to say some of things that I am thankful for while I am thinking of Thanksgiving
1)That my mother survived last year and I get to go and spend Thanksgiving with her this weekend.
2)That even though I want to kick a certain someone in the nuts sometimes, I still love him and love that he cares enough to send me to see my mom
3)My SweetPea who makes coming home such a joy because she jumps all over me like she is SOOOOO happy to have me home to play with her.
4)Finally making new friends here and feeling like I belong instead of like I am a 5th wheel that everyone is forced to spend time with
5)Knowing that my choice to take medicine is finally making me feel like life can be happy and fun again.
6)Having a body that although I am not happy about the shape of it, allows me to appreciate the fact that I can walk, run, dance, sing, swim, and many things that less fortunate people can not!!
7)All of the people who make an effort to keep in touch and let me know that I still matter to them, whether I am there or not.
8)To my friend Pistolleer who introduced me to a side of myself that I never got to know before..

There are many more, but that is enough for now. I just want to wish everyone a wonderful Thanksgiving and I hope that all of my friends who are going through so much upheaval in their personal lives manage to have a nice weekend and remember to surround yourselves with the people who matter to you.
Love Odette

What's been up with me....

2006-09-08T13:12:00.001-07:00

Well life has been extremely busy for the last month and a half and here is some of what has been going on.
About 4 weeks ago I went with my sister-in-laws Teresa and Tina and their friends Serena and Elena over to Bowen Island where we spent the night at Teresa's cabin and had a great time drinking, "smoking", dancing, singing and just generally having a great girls' get away. I have never done that before and I really hope to do something similar soon, because it was such a good time. Then the next weekend, Sam and I went to Whistler and met up with his sister Tina and her boyfriend Rick. We walked around the village, bought some stuff, had an amazing dinner at a little Irish pub. Then we went back to our beautiful hotel, swam in the pool, hung out in the hot tub and then we (sam and I) had some great vacation nookie. On our way home the next morning, we stopped at all of the waterfalls on the way back to Vancouver and took some nice pictures. I will post pictures from my weekend adventures when I am at home on my own computer. The weekend after that, my nephew Dylan came out from Alberta and we took him to the PNE and had loads of fun playing the games and winning totally pointless stuffies. Sam and I have 2 huge black garbage bags at home full of PNE stuffies that we claim we are keeping for when we have a child. We will see. This weekend Sam is off to Las Vegas for a friends' bachelor party and will be back on Monday night. I hope that he has a fun time and wins us some big money. I hope that I get to go and see Vegas some time soon. Maybe that can be the next girls' weekend. I am going to go tommorrow morning and have my hair cut and colored to a much darker and browner red shade that will hopefully require less maintenance and be the color I am picturing in my head. Tonight I am going to go and see the movie The Covenant. A story about families of witches, I hope that it turns out to be a good movie.
On the personal front, have found out that I have developed depression and I have started to take medication to help with it. After my mother almost died last November, I pretty much lost my ability to cope with stress and a bunch of other stuff. The plus side to taking the medication is that I am already starting to feel better and I have lost a few pounds in the 2 weeks that I have been on it. I was leery of what would happen but so far the results have been great, and I haven't wanted to punch anyone's lights out since I have been on it which is very good. Anyways, the outlook is good and I hope that it can help me lose the 90 pounds that I want to drop, which will definately improve my outlook on life!!!
Other then that I love my husband, love my sweetpea, and I am just trying to enjoy life as much as I can.

What

2006-09-08T13:12:00.000-07:00

Babies

2006-07-22T08:38:00.000-07:00

Probably just my sub concious at work but I just had a very real dream of being pregnant! It wasn't the big belly stage but just a little bump that you could feel when you pressed on my stomach. I was going in for my first ultra sound and Sam was wandering around in the waiting room picking up leaflets on baby insurance and stuff like that and bringing it to me. So wierdly realistic, god I hope that, that comes true in the next year or so!

2006-07-18T21:40:00.000-07:00

NEGATIVE RANT! LOOK AWAY!!!
Well since I am about to unload some negative thoughts and opinions, anyone who finds that stuff bothersome should look away now....I thought that maybe I would feel better if I could outwardly express what I feel inwardly a lot of days, here goes
I hate
*that I spent about $18,000 to take an administrative program and worked my ass off to get an Honours Diploma so that I could make some decent money and get the hell out of retail and what am I doing? Making shit money and they now have me running the retail warehouse store that they just opened where I do my reception job,,,,aaarghhhhh, and the reason? because I am the best with the customers and I am great at sales
*that I can't have a baby because we want to get a little ahead of all of our debt before we go there and we never have enough money to catch anything up
*that I am still overweight and no matter how much I know that I shouldn't be eating that bag of chips/big mac/slurpee I still do it and then kick myself later. It's like the evil fat demon in my head plugs the skinny girl inside of me's mouth so that she can't stop me from being self destructive....
*that my clothes never fit me anymore and I am always tugging and pulling and feeling all self conscious instead of attractive and confident
*that I can not just go out to Alberta and fix my parents so that my dad is not sounding suicidal every time that I talk to him and my mom is back into the hospital where she should be instead of being schlepped from one job to another with my dad since she can't be left alone
*that stupid mouth breathing gum chomping no showering idiot people always seem to sit by me on the bus and the sky train
*that I am becoming the kind of person who thinks and sometimes says racist things after living and working here for 4 years (you know, sometimes stereotypes are stereotypes for a legitimate reason)
*that the government won't hire me and give me a decent wage although I am amply qualified with my many years of customer service, my training and developed skills yet they will hire someone who doesn't even want the job or training but got it through a counseling thing because they are a member of a minority
group
*that I could put out 150 resumes on monster.ca and never get a single reply, bastards,,,
anyways, I could go on but I guess that that is enough for one night. PHEW!!!

HEAT STROKE,SPIDERS,PUKING,OH MY

2006-07-06T15:39:00.000-07:00

So, was all excited to go camping for the long weekend and thought it would be fun. Got a sinus infection on Wednesday and ended up needing antibiotics, how nice. Went camping and the hilariousness ensued. On Saturday Sam spent the day in bed in his parents trailer with a really bad attack of allergies, I was sick from my sinus infection and tried to stay in the shade and out of the 40 degree weather. Then in the evening when Sam was finally feeling well enough to get up and go take a shower, I accidentally gave him body lotion instead of shower gel(the bottles are identical) and he tried to wash his face with it and got it all in his eyes and they bothered him all night. Then one of the kids, who is 2 1/2 got heat stroke from being in the sun all day and ending up puking so many times that they had to take him to the hospital. Then on sunday I sent Sam to the shower without a belt to hold up his pants, and then on Monday I sent him to the shower with no towel. You would think that I had some sort of weird memory thing going on, but honestly I was just forgetting things all weekend. I felt so bad.
Then when I was getting ready to put the bedding back on the bed for the night, a HUGE spider landed on my hand when I flipped the blanket onto the bed. It was HUGE HUGE HUGE and scary and mean looking. It had this really long abdomen with a white x on it and it looked really vicious. I totally screamed like a girl threw it off of my hand and ran into the kitchen. Sam grabbed the vacuum to suck it up and then when he went to suck it up, he dropped the vacuum a bit and it hit the bed and made the spider go flying through the air. GOD I just wanted to run out of the room and never look back.... It turned out to still be on the bed and we ended up vacuuming it up and then sucked up some bug killer just to be sure it was dead. EWEWEWEWEWEWEW, I hate bugs. So that was my fun fun weekend, sometimes its just better to stay in bed at home!

Getting it done

2006-06-21T11:23:00.000-07:00

The plan was to go home and clean right away, but I got minorly side tracked by the fact that I decided that It would be the perfect night to drink my last Peach cider as motivation. Well contrary to what usually happens, I instantly got a little bit drunk and then feeling quite amorous I decided that I needed to drag my hubbie off to the bedroom where some excellent shenanigans occured!! He has already asked me what I want to drink when I get home tonight. Hmmm this could be fun.. Well, after that brief detour I got down to cleaning the bedroom. I got every piece of clothing off of the floor and into 3 big baskets and I will start washing it all tonight. It's wierd how just doing that made the room feel so much larger, even when we were laying down to go to bed, Sam said that it felt like there was more space in the room. It feels really good to know that I could actually get something done. So tonight it will be the laundry room and if I am feeling really motivated, the kitchen as well.

Feeling the urge to nest.

2006-06-20T09:08:00.000-07:00

So I am the absolute last person who ever wants to do things like cleaning, and dishes and stuff like that. Even though I love to have a clean house, I hate having to make it that way, I would have no problem paying someone else to do laundry and dishes and cleaning ( you know if I had the money, that is). But this last Sunday, Sam and I were feeling like we could actually accomplish something, so out side we trouped and cleaned up the huge pile of household electronic items and boxes and junk that had had been migrating into a big ugly pile in front of our door (we live in a downstairs suite with an overhanging balcony). It took us a few hours and we planted a tree that we had been given and we swept and we tidied up the BBQ area and now it looks great! It has actually inspired me to move into the house and start cleaning this week. This is the list of stuff that I am hoping to have done by next Sunday so that our house is not such a pit that we can't ever invite friends over.
1)Kitchen - Top to bottom including cupboards and floors
2)Bedroom - The 2 foot pile of clothing on the floor, must be washed, dryed and put in of all things the strange rectangular piece of wood with the drawers where the clothes magically disappear. Or the similarily shaped hole in the wall.
3)Bathrooms - The floors and sinks and toilet and tub must be scrubbed
4)Living Room - It's not to bad, but the clothing that is there must be put away and vacuuming must occur
5)Laundry Room - Clothes all hung up and put away.
6)Dining Room - Must turn dining table back into table as opposed to a place to set everything down on and leave it there.
7)Sams computer room - I refuse to touch and he must deal with all on his own.....
Then once we have all of these things done, we can have everybody over for a BBQ yah!!!!!

2006-06-11T11:05:00.000-07:00

These photos are of Myrranda belly dancing, Gywenna belly dancing and some of Myrrandas students in the group shot. Also the posed picture is of Myrranda and her student Annika. She was so sweet. THe last shot is of Myrranda's husband Sgain and her student Faye.

2006-06-11T10:59:00.000-07:00

This is a picture of my friends Mathieu and Seth, I sewed the favor that Seth is wearing, many many years ago, it made me feel very nice to see that he still wears it. Seth's wife Alexandra is in the 2nd picture along with Sean ( in the Kimono)along with, Kelsey and Steve

2006-06-11T10:52:00.000-07:00

These photos are of Myrranda, one of the most beautiful and giving and adorable women I have ever had the privilege to meet. One of her belly dancing students Faye and I did Mehndi all over her hands and back. I did her right hand and back.

Sealion War 2006

2006-06-11T10:46:00.000-07:00

I had wanted to go toi Sealion to see some friends that I have not seen in a very long time and boy was I glad that I went after all. I got to see a lot of people that I really missed. The following pictures are of them. I will probably have to seperate the pictures into a few posts though to get them all to fit and say who is in them. The first picture is of my friend Sara who is medievally known as Aria and who plays the harp and sings beautifully.

Procrastinating, what was I doing again?

2006-06-04T09:20:00.000-07:00

Off we travelled to the grand old USA yesterday and shopped up a storm. Well as much of a storm as you can make with almost no money, maybe a light sprinkle would be more apprapo. I was sure that there would be more plus size shopping available there since every statistic you hear is about how America is one of the fattest countries anywhere. Well I have to tell you, it was a little bit disapointing. There was only one actual plus size store which is called Lane Bryant and they are a total rip off, and then we had to travel an extra 40 minutes to get to an Old Navy that carries their new plus size selection and it turned out to be one small section that did not have that great of a selection. I did end up finding a few items to buy but man that was hard enough. I did manage to snag a really sweet hippy style skirt for $14 at Kmart. Also, I thought that Target was supposed to have a huge section to shop in, but their store was just as pathetic as the Zellers/Bays/Sears/Walmarts here in Canada. The plus size stuff is on about 6 racks with no really variety and usually a mess and shoved off into the sale rack area. Now come on people just because a person is plus sized doesn't mean that they don't want cool funky clothing to. Anyways, enough of the rant. I really wanted to say, how we have avoided cleaning a single thing yet this weekend and now I must go and remedy that to ensure that something actually gets done today. Wish me luck!!

Yah the weekend

2006-06-02T22:35:00.000-07:00

Couldn't wait for work to end today for some reason. Tommorrow morning Sam and I are heading down to Bellingham to do a little bit of grocery shopping and also to Old Navy to check out the plus size line they carry now. Then we get to spend the rest of the weekend cleaning up the disaster that is our home. You know that you have been just a little slack in your cleaning schedule when you have absolutely no clean cutlery or dishes. OOOOPS! We decided to go out for dinner one last time before the big clean up this weekend. Boy am I excited......I hate cleaning but I love the way it looks when it's clean and tidy. It is so much less stress when you come home to a nice and tidy house and nothing that needs to be done or cleaned up. AHHHHH. HOpe everyone has a great weekend!!

Handsome Hubby

2006-05-31T09:37:00.000-07:00

Just thought that I would put in some pictures of my handsome hubbie...Sam. Love him!! The first one is at Jordan and Zandra's wedding reception and the second is from our honeymoon when we were at Universal Studios.

2006-05-31T09:20:00.000-07:00

Today I am heading downtown to get my hair cut at Marvel (my esthetics school) and on Wednesdays it is only $5.00. I am going to go to John Fluevog and drool on the new blue/green minis that they got in and try them on again. I can't wait to buy them. They are a little slice of artsy heaven. Here is a picture of them up above, aren't they beautiful? Then I am going to go to Bodacious and try on one of their new dresses and then tonight I am going to my grad ceremony for Sprott Shaw Community College. I receive my diploma tonight. I got an Honours diploma and a 100 percent attendance award as well. I can't wait to see my friend Wendy there and see how she is doing and Dorothy who I haven't talked to in about 4 months. I am also goign to see if I can find Sara anywhere. Have a great day!!!

Bed, sleep, please......

2006-05-26T08:24:00.000-07:00

So here I sit at work, wisihing that my tired befuddled brain and body could be at home in bed. I have another sinus infection and man do they totally kick your ass. I feel like the front of my face is stuffed with lead, it feels so sore and full. I don't think that I have had a plain and simple cold in the last 10 years, it always evolves into a sinus infection. Chronic Sinusitis sucks ass. Anyways, I went to the doctor yesterday and he prescribed my some horse pills in antibiotic form and I started them last night, so I hope that by Sunday I am all better. They have the whole listing of potential side effects such as nausea, diahhrea, death, you know all that good stuff. I took the first pill last night and about 1/2 an hour later I got this instantaneous feeling of nausea and I thought, oh man, now I fell like barfing along with the other stuff, great!! But once I ate something, it seemed to go away, thank god. Oh, well, guess that I should get back to actually starting my work day after all.

2006-05-14T22:28:00.000-07:00

I had a great weekend and thought that Jordan and Zandra's Wiccan wedding was very beautiful. As promised here are some pictures. Great colors, I loved Z's rust colored dress and J's matching shirt and flower. One picture is of a real hand fasting. One of the pictures is of a tradition called "Jumping the broom" a kind of fertility rite, which we all agreed that they did not need because they are fruitful enough! One picture is Z walking up the aisle with her niece Monica and her daughter Xoe(god she looked soooo cute, in her little dress!)One picture is of J and Z and my husband Sam and myself.

We're off to see the wizard

2006-05-13T11:26:00.000-07:00

Made it to the island on the 7pm ferry yesterday and I am currently getting resay to go to Jordan and Zandras wedding at 3pm. I am so happy that the day dawned bright and sunny for them. I can't wait to see what they are going to do, since the ceremony is at a Cemetary. Sam and i are staying at my friend colins house, it is really nice, It is the first time that I have had a chance to see it. I will put up some pictures when we get home from the wedding. Hope everyone has a nice weekend.

2006-05-05T17:53:00.000-07:00

Halloween last year, the best costume ever! I love
the picture looking up the stairs, see I do have a chin woohoo!

2006-05-01T19:40:00.000-07:00

The Chase

her lungs burned and still she ran
she knew it was futile but she had to try
he was there, somewhere behind her
steadily gaining ground.
she couldn't pretend that some of the fear
wasn't tinged with excitement.
excitement that it would finally be over,
no more hiding, no more escaping the truth,
he wanted her and she was going to be his.
a noise behind her and she turned to look,
nothing...but she knew he was there, he was always there,
waiting and hungering,
for her, only her,
and then, his arms closed around her, abruptly stilling her flight,
he whirled her around in a dizzying circle
and then he had her, head tilted back, neck stretched out so long and vulnerable,
white and silky in the moonlight.
she couldn't bear it, the suspense,
and then he whispered in her ear,
DO YOU LOVE ME?
DO YOU WANT IT?
without hesitation, she replied "oh, yes, god yes...
and he struck, burning pain and burning pleasure all at once.
Finally together... Forever...

2006-04-29T09:27:00.000-07:00

2006-04-29T09:17:00.000-07:00

The first picture is of how Sweetpea would help me with my homework and the second is of how she looked a few weeks after we got her, she was SOOOO cute and tiny when we first got her. Whenever we travelled in the car, she would climb upbehind my neck and lay across my shoulders, with her head peeping out from around the side fo my face.

2006-04-29T09:00:00.000-07:00

This is a photo from my wedding in October 2004 and it is one of my favorites even though it is blurry. We were both under my veil and I laughed when I saw that Sams lips looked as red as mine with my lipstick.

2006-04-28T16:49:00.000-07:00

Just checking to see if this works!!